Currently making ridiculous conclusions and freaking out by myself in the library instead of studying as diligently as I have been all week. I think I’m losing it because it’s Friday.




"sorry i didn’t respond to your text i was disenchanted with the entire human experience," a thrilling new memoir by me


You now how in movies, when a girl meets a guy, and they hit it off so well?

I never thought that would happen to me, but it literally just did.

He came out of nowhere, and when our eyes met for the first time, all I felt was a sigh of relief. I ignored the feeling, but I didn’t ignore him. I didn’t want to ignore him, so I went along with the words he spoke to me (because just like a movie would prompt, he did without my efforts).

I didn’t think he would talk to me the second day, but ..surprise! Talk to me is all he did, and talking to him felt like talking to someone I wish I had known sooner.

He’s 22, and I think that’s pretty frightening. His morals and attitude towards life are in line with mine judging from what we’ve talked about so far, in one fifty-minute class.

He’s a micro-bio major, and ..well if you knew my tastes, enough said there.

I’m really interested in getting to know him, but I’m terrified to because I’m never this lucky. I’ve never had someone notice me like this. It’s so sudden, so unexpected, and so implanted into my unconscious mind because when we were walking next to each other, we just felt so aligned. I, the most cynical person right now, can almost say that we felt perfect.

And when he touched my hand, I felt a jolt that I hadn’t felt with anyone [else] in a really long time.

It feels right in my heart, but only after a day? It’s crazy. My mind keeps telling me that he won’t continue to talk to me like this. - but my gut tells me otherwise.

In the midst of all this mess is a voice telling me to turn back around and look at what I already have with somebody else.

But I don’t think it’s enough anymore. It has been borderline enough for quite some time already.


I can’t sleep.


people need to understand that some people just don’t like talking it has nothing to do with u so don’t take it personally like some people just aren’t talkers and they’ll probably never text u first or initiate a conversation and it’s not because they don’t like u it’s just that they don’t think to say anything bc they’re comfortable with not saying anything

البعض يقول ان انتظار احدهم مؤلم، والبعض الاخر يقول ان نسيان احدهم مؤلم. ولكنني اقول ان اسوأ الم هو حين لا تعرف ما اذا كان عليك النسيان ام الانتظار

Some says its painful to wait for someone. Some says its painful to forget someone but I say the worst pain comes when you don’t know whether to wait or to forget.

(Source: sarxj)

i’m into really low commitment hangouts like lying on the floor near each other or falling asleep together or falling into an endless void together

(Source: porpentine)


i dont feel like im capable of feeling close to anybody lately like i just dont want to break the surface level with people anymore


I’m always so empty nowadays — more empty than ever before. It’s a comfortable kind of empty, though. It’s the kind of empty that leaves me feeling as if there is so much room for growth.

People think they know you. They think they know how you’re handling a situation. But the truth is no one knows. No one knows what happens after you leave them, when you’re lying in bed or sitting over your breakfast alone and all you want to do is cry or scream. They don’t know what’s going on inside your head—the mind-numbing cocktail of anger and sadness and guilt. This isn’t their fault. They just don’t know. And so they pretend and they say you’re doing great when you’re really not. And this makes everyone feel better. Everybody but you.

William H. Woodwell Jr.

(Source: art-any-road)

I want to get more comfortable being uncomfortable. I want to get more confident being uncertain. I don’t want to shrink back just because something isn’t easy. I want to push back, and make more room in the area between I can’t and I can.

Kristin Armstrong 

(Source: psych-facts)